i would rather

"The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost." ~ G. K. Chesterton

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i would rather have given all i could muster for love

taken chances, stayed up and out all night

made big blunders,

written apologies - felt ashamed of myself

than to have reserved my actions

i would rather toss my cares for all else aside

roll the dice with you, my dear

and had them come up snake eyes

even after throwing every ounce we had into it

than to have wondered later what if

i would rather be in the 12 steps of recovery from love

than watched from the sidelines

waited in pain or fear, risked nada

never attempting to run the race

than to have just let it go

i would rather have thrown all i could into love

and have it cave in on me

and be thrashing and screaming out

beneath the difficulty and pain of loss

than to have held back

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" 'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. " ~ Tennyson